I got to watch Byron while Maria had Hudson....

I was so excited to get the opportunity to watch Byron. We went and got a haircut, we went to the dog park with Bailey and Lily, and the lil guy helped me make muffins this morning. I got to watch my husband step in and help take care of him and I stepped back and thought to myself, what a fantastic dad he will be. I returned him to his mom and dad today and as me and Steve were pulling away from Mckennan it got eerily quiet until we both looked at each other and said, "I feel empty, we should really have children..."

So now we have decided we are going to go camping this weekend and on a date this evening after he changes the oil in my car... we have to keep our minds in the now because hoping for children is depressing us. The time of year is not helping either between Mother's Day, Memorial Day, and Father's Day we get no reprieve....mostly just a big slap in the face.

My car has started making a funny noise and the mechanics think it is the wheel bearing (spelling?). Kind of is a disappointment because we will not be able to just go on spontaneous trips anymore until we get it repaired.. dang it all anyways.

Oh well, "Every new day brings the possibility of a miracle".....