Pancake lessons of a little girl...

Time sure does fly when you have a fast growing miracle that, just a short while ago, was a figment of your imagination.  I am here to tell you she is real and she is simply amazing.  I have learned many things as a mother that could not have been taught in a classroom or lecture hall, and they could not have been preached on a pulpit.  The only way to learn them is hands on experience and a bit of encouragement from those who have gone before you.

If someone would have told me I was going to be a mom I would have scuffed.  If they told me she would the most beautiful tan I could have ever imagined, I would have ignored them. If they told me she would have epilepsy and would require something more of us I would have said, "We are not good enough for her."  But guess what? I would have been wrong all three times.

Pancakes have taught me many things in the past but this time Baby Pancake has taught me that I am good enough, strong enough, beautiful enough, and faithful enough for her.

Could it really get any better than this?

What has changed in the last two years?!?

How did we go from needing this piece of advice... To feeling like our world is out of control and this post is exactly where it is at?

By the Grace of God. That is how.  Can you believe that our "8 year wait" miracle baby turned 1 year old already?  Unbelievable.

We went from having empty hands and hearts to having a little girl who filled in the blank spaces and added more places where love would just continue to grow.

Go ahead... Idulge in some pictures...You know you want to. Summer is coming up and you will hear plenty more about the upcoming "Pancake" lessons that seem to make their way onto our griddle :)

 While we thought we were teaching her about life she taught us what life is all about...

  

This Christmas season...

Ya know, it is kind of funny how I imagined my life happening.  I pictured a house, a job I enjoyed, no children, no husband, and a BIG HUGE bird. That was what I thought my life would be like and I was sure it would be just perfect.  Then I met Steve, fell in love, lost a daughter, lost a son, lost 200lbs, gained perspective, am in college, and just when we started to build our life without a child, here comes Kamiyah.  Bakannah would be 7 years old now and instead of curling up in the Christmas ball we usually do we have been blessed to share this year with one of the sweetest little girls I have ever met.  I did not get much for gifts, in fact, I got into a car accident, my husband was stolen from and then his car ended up totaled.  Did that stop the joy? nope. Jesus has blessed us with so much more than we could have ever asked for and NOTHING could have taken that away.

 Many great people poured love on us and Kamiyah. I never knew Kamiyah would own Toys-R-Us in one Christmas! From friends giving us clothes, to family helping putting the car back together, to just visiting with people we have not seen in awhile, it was amazing.

This is not how I planned my life and it sure is a good thing God is good at what he does because I like this plan way more than what I had in store for myself. Please read through to the end. Perhaps you will catch a glimpse of the greatness. :~)

“Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to?

The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of – throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage, but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.”  -C.S. Lewis