I was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism in 3rd grade but the medication never did much for me so I just quit taking it until I became pregnant with Kamiyah and then I was more concerned about her than anything else. The funny thing was, though, that my thyroid problem went away according to all of my blood work so I never thought anything of it. My pregnancy progressed and my baby seemed to not be growing very well and by the time I was 37 weeks she was only 3.5lbs. Well, she was born and her weight was just barely high enough to fit in her carseat and we went home!
When Kamiyah was about 10 months old we started realizing there was something wrong neurologically and we have no clue what happened. Until yesterday. I found out that I have Hashimoto's Disease and that infertility runs wild with it and usually people who finally do get pregnant their baby will not survive. If the baby does, however, survive their life is put in danger and they will more than likely be born with neurological problems.
This. Explains. My. Whole. Life.
I realized yesterday that my first two kids could not survive because of me and my daughter that is a straight up miracle will forever have to deal with a neurological deficit so rare that the Mayo Clinic cannot even treat her.
My heart is just crushed. How could we have not caught this before it reeked havoc on our family?
I have no clue. We are in the process of caring for Kamiyah and picking up the pieces of the cards we have been dealt.
Perhaps now that we can see our hand in this game of poker we call life we can trade in a few of these bad cards for a few that make our hand a lot more playable. We will get back in the game and we can still win.
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." -Romans 8:28
