Pretty sweet...not gonna lie.

I went to Zumba today after not going for a week because my instructor was gone and it wooped my butt. I convinced a lady from my church to go with me and she fell in love as well, so in other words I snagged me a Zumba buddy. YAY!!!! So, as I was walking in to the wellness center, I saw the lady that lead the weight watcher's meetings and so she went to Zumba as well, and also loved it. Zumba buddy #2 coming right up!

Zumba makes me feel sexy and I love it.

If I do not get pregnant this month I am going to the Zumba convention and Zumbaing with the best.... I am sooo pumped.

Life is GOOD!

Father's Day...

I know it has been a long while since I last blogged, but I have been enjoying my summer and have been on the computer less.

Another unsuccessful month in the fertility world, clearly shutting off your brain and letting go does not help this chick.

I went and saw the gastric bypass doctor and he told me to stop losing weight before I waste away to nothing. I said "fine." Although clearly my obesity was not what was hindering my ability to have children. If so, I am still not thin enough. I will worry if I hit 120lbs, until then I am not scared.

My father said, "well, your thinner, just don't gain it back." I am like,"thanks." I am tired of people being discouraging just because I had the gastric bypass... if I lost my weight by doing weight watchers or the gastric bypass, who cares? They are both complicated and life altering, I sure as hell did not take the easy way out no matter what anyone says. If you have not been there, you have no place to talk. Mean people suck! *sigh*

"I am different, it has changed everything."

My story is now up on the Sanford website and I think they did a fantastic job. It has really helped me see what I have accomplished, and that is saying a lot because most days I feel like I am a complete and utter failure.

It pretty much says it at the end, "I am different, it has changed everything."

http://www.sanfordhealth.org/mystory

I got to watch Byron while Maria had Hudson....

I was so excited to get the opportunity to watch Byron. We went and got a haircut, we went to the dog park with Bailey and Lily, and the lil guy helped me make muffins this morning. I got to watch my husband step in and help take care of him and I stepped back and thought to myself, what a fantastic dad he will be. I returned him to his mom and dad today and as me and Steve were pulling away from Mckennan it got eerily quiet until we both looked at each other and said, "I feel empty, we should really have children..."

So now we have decided we are going to go camping this weekend and on a date this evening after he changes the oil in my car... we have to keep our minds in the now because hoping for children is depressing us. The time of year is not helping either between Mother's Day, Memorial Day, and Father's Day we get no reprieve....mostly just a big slap in the face.

My car has started making a funny noise and the mechanics think it is the wheel bearing (spelling?). Kind of is a disappointment because we will not be able to just go on spontaneous trips anymore until we get it repaired.. dang it all anyways.

Oh well, "Every new day brings the possibility of a miracle".....